My biggest challenge? I’m living it this instant, surrouned by papers I should’ve graded weeks ago, a week from a huge school-wide exhibition my students are no where near ready for, wishing more than anything I could be watching the finale of Top Chef instead of slowly melting down in my room…..
What is my biggest challenge? Balance. I can’t seem to find it.
I put off work. I relax.
I feel guilty. I overwork.
I oversleep. I feel guilty. I work harder.
I snap at my students. I drink too much.
I undersleep. I drink too much coffee.
I get hyper. I have a good day. I think I have it figured out.
I break down. I have no idea what I’m doing.
I procrastinate. I cram. I overshedule.
I yell at my kids for not being on top of their shit. I laugh. I’m a hypocrite.
My biggest challenge? Getting up everyday knowing I’ll go to sleep with more to do. Figuring out how to live my life and do my job without failing at both.
I hope by next year my biggest challenge is something I know I can work through, because I’m having doubts about this one.